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ENTRY DATE: november 11, 2003


Today was one of those days...

Today i asked my Bible students to write a letter to the Lord describing how it felt when He first saved them, and how it felt to surrender to the Living God and feel that very First Love.

I have to admit: the assignment was for me. I needed to complete it, for today my faith was settled in dulcid drudgery. What follows is what i wrote:

I remember it just felt right, Lord. It just felt like it was "correct." It was how it was supposed to be. No parades, no nothing. It was quiet and dark, but the darkness wasn't scary. It was soft, and it shut out all but the light, and kept me focused there.

I had no idea what I was getting into, but it didn't matter. All that mattered was getting into it. I wish I could see You like that, always. I wish each moment was lived in that moment, without blemish. I know it will someday, and I see that in the distance, yet what is magnified is right now, and I am not proud of right now. I exist, yet I need to excel. I teach and learn, yet I need to grow. Bring me to that moment each day where faith is a celebration and obedience is exciting. I truly love You, Lord. Forgive me when I don't act or speak like it.

Paul Daniel



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